Kanye West Admits He’s ‘Losing’ His ‘Family’ On ‘Donda’ Track Amid Divorce From Kim Kardashian

Kanye West finally dropped his long-awaited album, ‘Donda,’ and fans quickly picked up on lyrics that seemed inspired by his soon-to-be ex-wife, Kim Kardashian.

Update 11/15/21: Kanye officially released the song, titled “Never Abandon Your Family,” as part of the deluxe edition of DONDA.

“You know why my spirit’s callin’ / Darkness can’t take light from me / Haven’t you gone far enough? / Sacrificed the ones you love,” Ye raps at the start of it, per Genius. He also mentions “like some twisted fantasy,” a reference to his album, My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy. In the chorus, Kanye says, “My, my, my family / My family, I’m losing my family.”

In the second verse, he seems to reference the issues with his family life. “Cried out to you in my sleep, you thought it was a dream / ‘Why won’t you answer me? I’m in the room/’Tell mom you’re sorry,’ she’s screaming at me / ‘Daddy, how could you leave? Daddy, how could you leave?’ / ‘Come back tonight, daddy, please, come back tonight, daddy, please'” Kanye also said that he wished he “never screamed.”

The new version of DONDA included more than twenty extra minutes of music (pushing the runtime to over two hours.) The expanded version included alternate versions and new features, as well as the clean version of “Life Of The Party,” Ye’s collab with Andre 3000. “Up From The Ashes,” “Never Abandon Your Family,” “Keep My Spirit Alive Pt. 2,” and “Remote Control 2” were the four other tracks.

Original: When news broke of Kanye West holding listening parties for his long-delayed album Donda, there were two immediate questions: 1) would Kanye, 44, actually release it this time or pull it at the last minute? and 2) would any songs be about Kim Kardashian? Kim, 40, filed the divorce papers in February, so fans were eager to scour the lyrics to see if Ye made any reference to his wife, their romance, and/or the split in his new music. There were reports that Kanye’s “Welcome To My Life” made reference to his time in Calabasas, and fans finally got to find out for themselves.

During one track, the rapper repeatedly and soberly sang that he was “losing” his family, singing: “I’m losing my family / I’m losing my family / I’m losing my family.” Listeners interpreted the lyrics as a nod to Kim and their children North, 8, Saint, 5, Chicago, 3, and Psalm, 2.

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Kanye really invited Kim just to say “I’m losing my family” #DONDA pic.twitter.com/sorUg8i0zD

— zach (@gzach_) July 23, 2021

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Kim and her kids in the crowd hearing Kanye say “I’m losing my family” #DONDA pic.twitter.com/VDhQG7dc1x

— jamon (@jamon) July 23, 2021

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Kanye singing "I'm losing my family" while Kim and the kids are in the crowd………. pic.twitter.com/O17p92gixc

— Michelle Rennex (@michellerennex) July 23, 2021

For the longest time, Kim was Kanye’s muse. When Kim was still with her husband Kris Humphries, Kanye wrote about her “Cold” (fka “Theraflu” and “Way Too Cold.”) “And I’ll admit, I had fell in love with Kim / Around the same time she had fell in love with him / Well that’s cool baby girl, do your thing / Lucky I ain’t had [Jay-Z] drop him from the team,” Kanye raps on the song, referencing the Brooklyn Nets, Kris’s team at the time. In 2012, four months into their relationship, Kanye held a listening party where he played a track titled “My Perfect B-tch,” per Rolling Stone. Kanye later tweeted how he wrote the song about her. The song was supposed to appear on the Cruel Summer compilation but became one of the many times Kanye promised to deliver music, only to scrap it.

“Bound 2,” the final track on Kanye’s 2013 album Yeezus, will always be associated with Kim, both for the raunchy lyrics and the steamy video of the two of them on a motorcycle. Kim also shared how “Lost In The World,” from Kayne’s My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy, was directly inspired by Kim’s 30th birthday. “Happy 10 year anniversary to Kanye’s ‘My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy’ album,” Kim captioned a Nov. 2020 Instagram post. “For those that don’t know the story behind ‘Lost In The World’…Kanye couldn’t come up with some of the lyrics but then realized he had then [sic] in a poem he had written me that was my birthday card he gave me for my 30th birthday. He took the poem he wrote me and made it the song. I keep everything!”

Kanye also referenced Kim in an unreleased track titled “Awesome.” The song leaked in 2015, two years after Ye performed it at the 2013 Met Gala, per The Hollywood Reporter. “Cause baby you’re awesome, so awesome / you look too good to be at work / you feel too good to ever hurt / I hope you ready for tonight / I’m gonna cook, you’ll be dessert,” he raps on the track.

Latter-day Kanye has also made reference to Kim in his music. On “Wouldn’t Leave,” from Kanye’s 2018 album, Ye, Yeezy referred to his infamous comments about how slavery “was a choice” and how it caused some marital strife between him and Kim. “I said, ‘Slavery a choice.’ They say, “How, Ye?”/Just imagine if they caught me on a wild day,” he rapped. “Wife calling screaming saying we’re about to lose it all/I had to calm her down ’cause she couldn’t breathe/I told her she could leave me now, but she wouldn’t leave.” Kanye also alluded to Kim’s social media use (“Closed on Sunday, you my Chick-fil-A / Hold the selfies, put the ‘Gram away / Get your family, y’all hold hands and pray)  on Jesus Is King’s “Chick-fil-A.”