It was one of the most shocking and heartbreaking tribals we’ve seen in years on ‘Survivor.’ Yes, you heard right — it came down to drawing rocks. And the one who drew that rock that sent her home is now walking us through that moment.
Alright, let’s start with that tribal. Adam told David they were whispering about Ken — so he used his idol on Ken instead of Hannah. That ultimately sent you home. What was going on there?
The Ken name had been brought up throughout the day — my name had been mentioned, as had David’s, and Ken’s. It didn’t strike me as odd that his name came out. David was trying really hard to be more aggressive to make them vote for him, then he’d play the idol for himself. I was actually surprised that Hannah was getting votes — I thought it would be myself or Ken. Hannah wasn’t a threat to anybody; she was a little all over the place, and myself and Ken were the most solid with David. We thought if they weren’t going to target David, they’d target someone close to David.
So you pick the rock, how do you feel?
It was devastating. You come into that game, not knowing how’d you feel when you see your name come up; by then, I knew what that felt like. That moment, the game had ended and it was because of what I was holding in my hands. It shouldn’t have ended; I wasn’t even on the chopping block that week. I had to walk away and kept thinking, ‘I didn’t win and I can’t help my family, and do all these things.’ There were so many emotions going on.
When you got home, did you tell everyone what had happened?
The loved ones visit is coming up in the next episode; so . . . my husband was in Fiji when it happened because he had been brought in for the loved ones visit. He had to be told because my game was done, so he was aware that I was out of the game. He had been aware. It was really hard for him to have to go through all of that.
Watching back, how do you think you were portrayed? Anything you wish had shown?
One thing I wish they had shown more was Sunday really assuring me that I wasn’t getting vote out when David gave me the idol; she assured me over and over again. Unforutnaltey, I ended up being portrayed as unaware and almost not very smart because I voted for Cece. But it was because my group was supposed to be voting for her; Sunday was really the reason why I made that decision. I thought she and I were playing the game together. Even literally sitting in tribal, she was sitting next to me, telling me we were all voting for Cece. So it wasn’t likeI was completely unaware of the circumstances and what was happening. I had a reason.
Do you have any regrets?
I should have picked a different rock! If I had just moved my hand over, I would have been fine.
Who do you think is the biggest threat left in the game?
At this point, Zeke. David did a very good job trying to get people to understand that. He said even if you think I’m a threat, vote me out, but Zeke needs to go next. As strategic as David is, Zeke was friends with everybody. It was hard for me to listen to people say to vote Hannah because she was a flipper when Zeke was a clear threat.
What element was your biggest challenge in the game?
The eyes [injury] was annoying and it was certainly frustrating — I was dirty and gross, so I couldn’t care for myself properly. Being out there, it was not what I had anticipated. I was ok drinking dirty water, sleeping on bamboo, not having food. I was becoming accustomed to it — it was invigorating and nice. The toughest challenge is the mental component of it; every time you see someone talking to someone, you think ‘What’s going on?’ When people walk away together, you think, ‘What’s going on.’ It’s a constant mental strain. You are always playing the game, [and] you don’t have a moment to breathe.
Would you return or do The Amazing Race?
Absolutely! If I could do The Amazing Race with my husband I would love that.
HollywoodLifers, are you sad to say goodbye to Jessica?