This just makes us so sad. Kid Cudi checked into rehab on Oct. 3 after suffering from depression and suicidal urges. We were shocked when we read Kid’s Facebook post announcing the news, because he also stated he has been struggling for so long. How heartbreaking! Read on to see Kid’s message to his fans about his struggles.
“Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed,” Kid Cudi, 32, wrote in a Facebook post on the evening of Oct. 4. “Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans. Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges. I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. ” Our hearts completely broke when we read this and we just can’t believe Kid felt the need to keep his feelings and hurt hidden for so long.
“I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life,” he continued. “Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how.”
“Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this. I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery. If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs. Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry. I love you, Scott Mescudi.”
Our hearts goes out to Kid today, and his family and friends, as he must be struggling through this rough time. We wish that anyone who is suffering from depression or suicidal thoughts is able to seek out help and find peace through discussing their pain with others, rather than locking it away and trying to deal with it all by themselves. We hope nothing but the best for Kid on this difficult day.
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