Charlie Sheen just admitted that he had ‘a suicide run’ after he found out he was HIV positive in a raw new statement. He opened up about his attempts at a ‘cowardly departure’ — see exactly what he said.
“The personal disbelief, karmic confusion, shame and anger” lead Charlie Sheen to consider suicide, he explained in an intense new letter about his struggle with HIV. After the 50-year-old actor told the public he had HIV on Nov. 17, he released an open letter about the dark days he’s faced since contracting the life-threatening disease.
“The personal disbelief, karmic confusion, shame and anger lead to a temporary yet abysmal decent into profound substance abuse and fathomless drinking. It was a suicide run. Problem was, I’d forgotten that I’m too tough for such a cowardly departure. Yet, despite this loathsome and horrific odyssey, I was vigilant with my anti-viral program,” Charlie wrote.
He went on, “My medical team could only shake their heads as each and every blood test returned levels revealing a state of remission. Even though I might have been trying to kill myself, one thing was radically evident; the disease was not.”
Charlie also talked about the sexual relations he’s had since contracting the disease: “In and around this perplexing and difficult time, I dazedly chose (or hired) the companionship of unsavory and insipid types. Regardless of their salt-less reputations, I always lead with condoms and honesty when it came to my condition. Sadly, my truth soon became their treason, as a deluge of blackmail and extortion took center stage in this circus of deceit.”
Our thoughts and prayers are with Charlie during this difficult time.
— Shira Benozilio