Funny girl Sarah Silverman may have the job of making people laugh, but sometimes humor is the last thing on her mind. In an inspiring new interview, Sarah opened up about her decades-long battle with depression and how she’s fighting to avoid hitting rock bottom anymore.
Although Sarah Silverman, 44, has been in the spotlight as a comedian for quite some time, behind the scenes, she has been struggling with depression since she was just 13 years old. Sarah bravely discussed the “dark places” her condition has taken her throughout her life in an interview with Glamour magazine, recounting her personal battles from the day the depression kicked in. While Sarah points out that things have gotten much better, she admits that she still has “downward spirals” every now and then.
Sarah told Glamour that she can vividly remember the day she began to feel depressed, when she returned home from a not-so-enjoyable camping trip. Once her mom picked her up and Sarah was reminded of her miserable time, things took a turn for the worst.
“It happened as fast as the sun going behind a cloud. You know how you can be fine one moment, and the next it’s, “Oh my God, I f****** have the flu!”? It was like that. Only this flu lasted for three years,” she said. “My whole perspective changed. I went from being the class clown to not being able to see life in that casual way anymore. I couldn’t deal with being with my friends, I didn’t go to school for months, and I started having panic attacks…I was a zombie walking through life.”
After weeding through several therapists and medications, Sarah said she felt like herself again when she began her comedic career doing stand-up alongside earning a degree at New York University. So when the feeling came back at age 22, she had a much better grasp on how to control it, also attributing her successful overcoming to her friend Mark. To this day, it isn’t easy, but Sarah’s struggles have helped her remain positive through the tough times.
“I still have downward spirals, days when I have to drag myself onstage to do stand-up or I’m just tweeting Morrissey lyrics from my bed,” she revealed. “But there’s one thing I know that I used to not know: It will pass. And it does…I’ve learned that keeping busy is a good thing for me. Like my mom always said, you just have to be brave enough to exist through it.”
We are so proud of Sarah for opening up about such a personal topic, and we love her inspiring philosophy. Even though she may still have some hard days, it sounds like she has come a long way since her depression set in — and we couldn’t be happier for her!
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— Taylor Weatherby