In a powerful new interview with ABC News, Amanda shares her biggest fears — and why she’s terrified about her upcoming re-trial.
After being convicted of murdering her roommate in 2007, then acquitted in 2011, Amanda Knox is now facing a re-trial to determine whether or not she killed Meredith Kercher in Italy. Visibly falling to pieces, Amanda spoke with Diane Sawyer in an interview which aired April 30 on ABC — and the 25-year-old revealed what she fears most about facing her accusers again.
Amanda Knox’s Interview With Diane Sawyer: What She Revealed
Amanda revealed that what happened to her, being jailed for the murder of her former roommate, “could have happened to anyone.” Being falsely accused of murder was “surreal” she said, but added that the most painful part was what she experienced while inside the courtroom when an Italian court decided she needed to stand trial again.
“I felt like after crawling through a field of barbed wire and finally reaching what I thought was the end, it just turned out that it was the horizon,” Amanda told Diane. “And I had another field of barbed wire that I had ahead of me to crawl through.”
She also revealed that during the murder investigation, she was interrogated to the point of admitting a false confession. The authorities told her she would never see her family again, and that her recollection of the night Meredith died was “wrong.” So in court, it was misconstrued as confessing to the crime.
“What happened to me, hit me like a train and there was nothing I could do to stop it…I was really afraid.”
Amanda says on the night that Meredith was killed, she was with her new boyfriend at his house watching a movie.
“I asked the police if I should have a lawyer, and they said ‘No”, that it would make it worse for me…I didn’t confess. They acted like my answers were wrong. They told me I had to answer correctly or I would never see my family again. I was incredibly vulnerable. I was demolished in that interrogation.”
Why Was Amanda Doing Cartwheels?
“I never did a cartwheel,” Amanda said. “I did do the splits and that was once…I think everyone reacts differently to death. My friend had been murdered, and it just could have possibly been me.”
Amanda Knox Says Labeling Her a Devil Is ‘Wrong’
She also admitted that being attacked in the media was harsh, but being called vicious names in court was the most difficult part.
“I was in the courtroom when they were calling me a devil,” she told Diane. “It’s one thing to be called certain things in the media, and it’s another thing to be sitting in a courtroom fighting for your life while people are calling you a devil. For all intents and purposes I was a murderer, whether I was or not. I had to live with the idea that that would be my life,” she said.
When the court ruled that Amanda was guilty, she said, “I couldn’t breathe…I lost it.”
Amanda was also told she was HIV positive—and then later told that it was in fact a mistake, that she was not infected with the virus.
Amanda Considered Suicide
When asked if she thought about suicide, Amanda said yes, that she had considered killing herself.
“I had panic attacks. I was losing my hair…I felt guilty about what they (her family) had to sacrafice for me. I wanted them to move on.”
Amanda Wants Meredith’s Family To Know The Truth
Amanda said she tried reaching out to Meredith’s family, but they don’t want to have any communication with her.
“I hope that one day I can have their permission to pay my respects,” Amanda said.
HollywoodLifers, did this interview change your mind about Amanda? Do you think she’s guilty or innocent?
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— Sandra Clark