Amber, who was on suicide watch earlier this month, reveals in a letter from jail that she is not allowed to write with a pen because she could use it to harm herself.
Teen Mom star Amber Portwood wrote a letter to her brother from jail in December claiming that cops won’t let her use a regular pen to write with because they fear that Amber will use it to stab herself. The 21-year-old reality start, who was placed on temporary suicide watch earlier this month, has to use a “special flexible writing utensil,” according to TMZ. This pen prevents inmates from stabbing themselves.
While this special pen seems to be part of typical jail protocol, Amber doesn’t want people to think that she’s dangerous. In the letter obtained by TMZ, Amber also reveals her fears about going to prison.
“I don’t think I’ll ever take this sh*t for granted,” Amber writes in her letter. “I’m really scared I’m going to prison.”
Amber also can’t stop thinking about how her time behind bars is going to effect her 3-year-old daughter Leah. “All I think about is Leah and how she needs a rolemodel,” she admits. “I am a good person and I pray that I can change my life.”
Amber is currently behind bars awaiting a Jan. 27 hearing date to battle her probation violation charges.
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