This is so heartbreaking. Cara Delevingne spoke out in a new interview about how she battled depression and suicidal thoughts as a teenager, revealing that she ‘didn’t want to exist anymore’. Check out the ‘Suicide Squad’ star’s shocking admissions about her mental health issues right here.
Cara Delevingne, 23, discovered she was depressed and suicidal at the age of 16, she tells Esquire UK in their Sept. issue. “I couldn’t deal with [the depression] any more. I realized how lucky and privileged I was, but all I wanted to do was die,” the model and actress admitted. “I felt so guilty because of that and hated myself because of that, and then it’s a cycle. I didn’t want to exist anymore. I wanted for each molecule of my body to disintegrate. I wanted to die.” Cara’s world was falling apart, and she had no idea what to do.
Cara explained that she would try to “dull the pain” by inflicting physical damage on herself. “I would run off to the woods and smoke a pack of cigarettes and then I would smash my head so hard into a tree because I just wanted to knock myself out,” she said. “I never cut myself, [but] I would scratch my legs till they bled.” So painful.
The Paper Towns actress also revealed that she missed six months of school when she was 16, and agreed to go on medication to “avoid being hospitalized” — though she didn’t like it one bit. “I hate meds,” Cara said in the interview. “I think they saved my life…but I don’t agree with them. It’s so easy to abuse them. I was just numb [from them]. I didn’t feel shit. It was horrible,” she concluded. Cara is so brave for being open about her issues, and we applaud her for her candidness.
HollywoodLifers, what’s your response to Cara’s interview?