It was another emotional episode of ‘I Am Cait,’ as Caitlyn struggled with some of her biggest questions. Does Caitlyn want to date men? What kind of bathing suit should she wear? Check out a full recap!
On the Aug. 9 episode of I Am Cait, Caitlyn Jenner faced a few daunting fears. For starters, she wore a bathing suit in public for the first time (while managing to make a hilarious Kim Kardashian joke in the process). She also answered, truthfully, whether she was attracted to men. Of course, the episode wasn’t all seriousness as Cait and the girls did a little bit of roller derby and, to be honest, considering Cait is a former Olympian you’d think she would have been a bit more graceful!
The episode picks up right where we left off, with Caitlyn at a Human Rights meeting in San Francisco. The group was pretty much unloading on her for how oblivious she is about the resources she has which other trans people do not. Several of the others in attendance explain to Caitlyn that they were so rejected from society that they had to turn to sex work because it was truly their only option. Caitlyn was totally receptive to their stories, and acknowledged in a cutaway how “privileged” she has been. “I’m blessed,” she says. “I’m in a wonderful position in life… It’s shocking to me to see the struggles that are out there.”
After the meeting, Cait talks strategy. Calling over her producer, she discusses the story of Blossom, who just explained to the group how badly she waned to go to nursing school, despite being rejected numerous times because she is trans. “I want you to take that talk that she had, I want you to edit it together and give it to me,” Cait says. “We’re gonna get her on The Ellen DeGeneres Show. We’re gonna get her into nursing school, and we’re gonna pay for it,” she says. Cait’s heart is just so big.
The next day, talk turns to, well, talk. More specifically Cait and Candice Cayne, talk about their voices. Caitlyn is struggling with accepting her male voice, however, Candice sweetly explains that our voices are who we are and Cait should own it because “you’re allowed to be both [genders].”
Anyways, the girls then decide to have a fun day where they can totally let loose, which means it’s time for some roller derby! Caitlyn doesn’t exactly kill it on skates, stumbling a bit, but it’s a joy to see all the women so free.
Speaking of letting loose, the big group of gals then head to a vineyard in Napa Valley which (we’re guessing) means wine, right? Right? Cait talks about how comfortable she’s been feeling in San Francisco. “To be honest with you, it’s scary, because I’m already thinking I don’t want to go back [to Los Angeles],” she says. “I don’t want to go home.” She begins to cry about, well, everything. Speaking of her upcoming appearance at the Espys, Cait explains that the tough part will be having her family there. “I want them to be proud of their daddy,” she sobs. So touching.
Then, the moment that we knew was coming, Caitlyn’s bathing suit decision. Talking about a certain suit, Cait says, “I love Kimberly to death, but this is something she would wear.” She means that the bathing suit is a little revealing, in a Kim Kardashian-sense. Alas, Cait admits that she’s very scared to wear a woman’s suit for the first time which is totally understandable, as anyone who’s ever worn a bathing suit can surely relate. “I am about as nervous as I could possibly be right now,” she says as she heads out to the pool.
Thankfully, Cait’s fears are quickly put to rest when all the other women cheer for her as she comes outside. They are all so supportive, it’s incredible. “I got the bathing suit on!” she says. “It felt very free… I looked pretty good.” Uh, I’d say so!
Speaking of getting pushed out of one’s comfort zone, Cait takes the girls to ride motorcycles. Following the down and dirty day, the girls clean up real nice for dinner. The conversation quickly turns to Cait’s sexual preference. “I don’t know,” Cait says. “I’ve never been with a guy… I don’t know!” Cait acknowledges that being with a guy would make a woman feel more feminine but acknowledges that, right now, she’s not particularly into men. “I don’t know where it’s all going,” she says.
Finally, the ladies head to the vineyard for a wine tasting. Cait kicks things off by sabering a bottle and the women all cheers one another, “to a great four days together.” Cait starts to get emotional explaining how much she has learned about herself in the past few months. “Months and months ago,” Cait begins to say, before pausing to hold back her tears. “How could I do a show that’s gonna make a difference in the world? It just really has been great,” she adds, before cursing the wine for making her get emotional.
At last, the trip must come to an end, and the women enjoy a final dinner together. Of course, it can’t all be drama-free. Throughout the episode, Ronda Kamihira expressed feeling a bit ignored by her best friend Cait, which to be honest, is a pretty legitimate complaint. Caitlyn acknowledges that she may be a little self absorbed right now.
Still, the trip as a whole was a major success. “Back to reality,” Cait says. “At some point you have to go back.” Cait also expresses her evolving stance on voice. “It’s not important, it’s about the words that come out,” she says. True that. The episode ends with Cait back in LA, asking Ronda what’s really up. “I’ve been working for you for two years and we’ve been friends for that amount of time and everything now is like this roller coaster and I feel like I don’t even exist anymore other than ‘Where’s my Starbucks?'”
“I’ve always appreciated your friendship. You were there. If I seem a little cold and sensitive, I apologize,” Cait responds. Then the two decide an impromptu movie date is exactly what they need. So freaking sweet.
What did you guys think of the episode? Did Cait make the right choice about her bathing suit? And what are your thoughts on her keeping her voice the same?
— Casey Mink