Everyone has problems, rich or poor, famous or not famous. Despite Cara Delevingne’s privileged upbringing, the successful model-turned-actress admitted to ‘Vogue’ that when she was a teenager, she suffered a dark period in her life which drove her to self-harm.
Cara Delevingne, 22, may seem like she has the perfect life, but even she has her own demons. The Paper Towns actress is the first to admit she was a “lucky girl” growing up in a privileged household, but that doesn’t mean she didn’t suffer from massive depression, self-hatred and anxiety. Opening up in the July 2015 issue of Vogue, Cara talked all about her struggles which at one point, led her to contemplate suicide.
“This is something I haven’t been open about, but it’s a huge part of who I am,” she told Vogue. “All of a sudden I was hit with a massive wave of depression and anxiety and self-hatred, where the feelings were so painful that I would slam my head against a tree to try to knock myself out. I never cut, but I’d scratch myself to the point of bleeding. I just wanted to dematerialize and have someone sweep me away.”
Cara, who admitted she grew up too quickly because of her mother’s addiction to heroin, was prescribed anti-psychotic drugs to help with her depression. It was when she was taking a break from modeling in New York that she hit the lowest point in her life, considering suicide. “I was packing my bags, and suddenly I just wanted to end it. I had a way, and it was right there in front of me. And I was like, I need to decide whether I love myself as much as I love the idea of death.” We’re so happy that Cara was able to be strong, even though she admits to feeling guilty for her depression.
“The worst thing was that I knew I was a lucky girl, and the fact that you would rather be dead, you just feel so guilty for those feelings, and it’s this vicious circle,” Cara continued. “Like, how dare I feel that way? So you just attack yourself some more.”
This is so important that Cara is acknowledging this. Millions of people struggle with depression, and despite your background or upbringing that doesn’t make your depression any less of a struggle, which is something Cara struggled grasping — but what you feel matters.
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“I think that being in love with my girlfriend is a big part of why I’m feeling so happy with who I am these days. And for those words to come out of my mouth is actually a miracle,” she tells the mag. Aww. Keep on being amazing, Cara!
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— Julianne Ishler