In her first full interview, Caitlyn Jenner truly pours out her soul. One of the most surprising stories she shared with ‘Vanity Fair’ reveals that she had her first-ever panic attack on her first day as a woman.
Caitlyn Jenner, 65, may have been ready to finally let the world see her true self, but that doesn’t mean she wasn’t nervous for the big reveal. While talking to Vanity Fair for the first time, Caitlyn shared that her first day of recovery after undergoing a massive transition surgery began in a very scary way: with a panic attack.
“What did I just do? What did I just do to myself?” are the questions Caitlyn asked herself in the 15-second long panic attack that sent her conscious into a frenzy.
It happened while she was laying in bed on the first day of recuperation after surgery, she told Vanity Fair. Caitlyn was hoping to get some sleep, but her mind refused to rest. Instead, she found herself jolting up in bed, the ice packs covering her eyes falling off, and asking the nurse to help her out of bed. The panic that ran through Caitlyn in those terrifying moments was enough to get her pacing down the hall of her home when she should have been laying still in bed.
Thankfully, Caitlyn was smart enough not to overreact after the panic attack and instead of having a total breakdown, she called a counselor from the Los Angeles Gender Center. Apparently, the counselor told Caitlyn that her panic attack was completely normal, and that sometimes the are brought on by the pain medication a patient is prescribed after undergoing such a big surgery.
The panic attack was Caitlyn’s first and last. As the interview goes on, she explains that she has never felt that way again.
“If I was lying on my deathbed and I had kept this secret and never ever did anything about it, I would be lying there saying, ‘You just blew your entire life,'” she explained. “‘You never dealt with yourself,’ and I don’t want that to happen.” Those are some very powerful words, and even more proof that Caitlyn is an inspiration to us all.
What do YOU think, HollywoodLifers — Are you surprised that Caitlyn’s first interview was so revealing? Are you looking forward to watching the upcoming docu-series about Bruce’s transition to Caitlyn? Comment below!
— Lauren Cox