Demi admits she had a ‘sick obsession’ from an early age, wishing her stomach was flat. Even after rehab, she spent the day after last Thanksgiving trying not to throw up. Here: her very personal confessions.
During the Demi Lovato: Stay Strong MTV special, singer Demi Lovato openly shares her journey to recovery after publicly battling an eating disorder, serious emotional issues and finally checking into rehab this past year.
Starting her career as a young actress, Demi’s body image issues stem back to her days as a little girl.
“When I was four years old, I remember looking in the mirror and running my fingers over my stomach and thinking I was fat,” Demi admits.
Though at a much healthier time in her life, the 19-year-old shares how being around so much food during the holidays can still be a troubling time for her. After a Thanksgiving meal at home, Demi confesses she felt like she gained 10 pounds in one day.
“I think the thought of all the food I ate on Thanksgiving was still in my head,” she says, remembering feeling guilty the next day. “I didn’t think that I was going to make it the whole day without throwing up.”
Though her road to recovery is not over, Demi appreciates all of her loyal Lovatics for giving her the strength to get better. During a concert, the singer even thanked a very special fan on stage who said Demi was the reason why she was able to take off her wig and reveal her bald head.
By cheering Demi on every step of the way and encouraging her to stay strong while she received treatment, the star’s supportive fans also gave meaning to the “Stay Strong” tattoos on Demi’s wrists. So sweet!
But while in rehab, that’s where Demi also discovered she was bipolar.
“I didn’t really realize I was sick,” she confesses. “I thought that writing seven songs in one night was normal. I thought that staying up til 5:30 in the morning is normal. Last night I stayed up til five in the morning. I just couldn’t sleep. My mind was racing and it’s an ongoing thing and I still learn how to cope with it.”
Though rehab was far from easy, Demi is choosing to share her story through this personal documentary as a way to help others dealing with similar issues.
“I believe that I definitely wasn’t given this voice just to sing,” she says. “I think it was given to me for a bigger purpose.”
While the “Skyscraper” singer has certainly come a long way, she makes it clear to viewers that recovery is a lifelong struggle.
“People think you’re like a car in a body shop. You go in, they fix you and you’re out. It doesn’t work like that,” she says. “It takes constant fixing.”
Despite the tough times, Demi promises that she’s going to continue doing what she loves — singing and acting!
So inspiring! What do YOU think? Isn’t Demi a great role model?
– Jennifer Velez
Plus, watch these clips of Demi from the after-show: