Demi Lovato Reveals In 'Stay Strong' Special: I Thought I Was Fat At Four Years Old

Wed, March 7, 2012 1:09am EST by 10 Comments

Demi admits she had a ‘sick obsession’ from an early age, wishing her stomach was flat. Even after rehab, she spent the day after last Thanksgiving trying not to throw up. Here: her very personal confessions.

During the Demi Lovato: Stay Strong MTV special, singer Demi Lovato openly shares her journey to recovery after publicly battling an eating disorder, serious emotional issues and finally checking into rehab this past year.

Starting her career as a young actress, Demi’s body image issues stem back to her days as a little girl.

“When I was four years old, I remember looking in the mirror and running my fingers over my stomach and thinking I was fat,” Demi admits.

Though at a much healthier time in her life, the 19-year-old shares how being around so much food during the holidays can still be a troubling time for her. After a Thanksgiving meal at home, Demi confesses she felt like she gained 10 pounds in one day.

“I think the thought of all the food I ate on Thanksgiving was still in my head,” she says, remembering feeling guilty the next day. “I didn’t think that I was going to make it the whole day without throwing up.”

Though her road to recovery is not over, Demi appreciates all of her loyal Lovatics for giving her the strength to get better. During a concert, the singer even thanked a very special fan on stage who said Demi was the reason why she was able to take off her wig and reveal her bald head.

By cheering Demi on every step of the way and encouraging her to stay strong while she received treatment, the star’s supportive fans also gave meaning to the “Stay Strong”  tattoos on Demi’s wrists. So sweet!

But while in rehab, that’s where Demi also discovered she was bipolar.

“I didn’t really realize I was sick,” she confesses. “I thought that writing seven songs in one night was normal. I thought that staying up til 5:30 in the morning is normal. Last night I stayed up til five in the morning. I just couldn’t sleep. My mind was racing and it’s an ongoing thing and I still learn how to cope with it.”

Though rehab was far from easy, Demi is choosing to share her story through this personal documentary as a way to help others dealing with similar issues.

“I believe that I definitely wasn’t given this voice just to sing,” she says. “I think it was given to me for a bigger purpose.”

While the “Skyscraper” singer has certainly come a long way, she makes it clear to viewers that recovery is a lifelong struggle.

“People think you’re like a car in a body shop. You go in, they fix you and you’re out. It doesn’t work like that,” she says. “It takes constant fixing.”

Despite the tough times, Demi promises that she’s going to continue doing what she loves — singing and acting!

So inspiring! What do YOU think? Isn’t Demi a great role model?

– Jennifer Velez

Plus, watch these clips of Demi from the after-show:

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Posted at 1:32 AM on November 17, 2012  

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Carlee

Posted at 9:13 PM on October 21, 2012  

Demi gave me the courage I needed to finally ask my parents for help.

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yuser

Posted at 2:51 AM on April 22, 2012  

demi will stay the best and she will (stay strong) no matter what people think about her and if you guys love demi lovato you should support her not talking about her on twitter or face or what ever it was and remember all she loved you guys from her heart!!!!!!! love ya demi

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Bethan Jones

Posted at 10:14 AM on April 11, 2012  

The people that judge Demi and call her names have never been through what she has been through so why say nasty things to her she is a wonderful and amazing person and i think you all should give her a break and as her fans you should be there for her not say nasty things.!!!!! stay Strong Demi <3<3<3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Mel (@melrichardson_)

Posted at 9:17 AM on March 10, 2012  

The people that judge Demi and call her names have never been through what she has. I haven’t gone through exactly the same thing but I still relate to her. Being a teenager, I don’t feel good enough about my looks, I get anxious, I get stressed, I get depressed, I guess we all are insecure. This beautiful girl needs to realise she is worth recovery and that looks aren’t everything! as she said in one of her songs “I had a dream beauty was only skin deep” <3 LOVE YOU DEMI. STAY STRONG!!!!!!!!!

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Arcachnar

Posted at 8:22 AM on March 8, 2012  

I am truly proud of you Demi about being so open to talk about the hard issues that you had to overcome. It truly need a lot of courage to do this. You are truly a role model.

My mother has the Bipolar Disorder as well. So I know how hard it is. It is not cool to see someone whom you love this way, indeed. God Bless.

PS: Keep your head up and do not listen to the haters. You are a lot better than them.

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Michael Jo

Posted at 9:39 PM on March 7, 2012  

Hi Demi I really hope you are doing well.Its been a while.
M.J. take care

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Mel

Posted at 4:33 PM on March 7, 2012  

Good on her for being open with fans and young women all over the world who are going through the same things.

Everyone goes through pain and struggles, but talking about it and making others aware of such unhealthy dangers will hopefully help heal the soul.

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Doug

Posted at 11:55 AM on March 7, 2012  

I saw me and the gang in the documentary! Of course, you have to record it and go frame by frame in the concert footage. Thank you MTV for making it and Hollyood Life for running some articles.

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Dd

Posted at 11:31 AM on March 7, 2012  

WTF whyy can’t i watch it!!! its soo annoying :(

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