Kendra Wilkinson Considered Suicide During Her Battle With Post-Partum Depression!

Wed, September 14, 2011 10:02am EST by 4 Comments

The illness tore her marriage apart and during her darkest days she admits she contemplated killing herself.

In a new interview, Kendra Wilkinson reveals how her love and devotion to baby son Hank Jr. convinced her she needed to seek help.The 26-year-old suffered long bouts of depression during high school and was even hospitalized twice after harming herself.

Kendra reveals how she relapsed after relocating to Indiana in 2009 with NFL star husband Hank Baskett, 29.

After Hank Jr. was born in December 2009, Kendra felt increasingly isolated, thousands of miles away from her family and friends, and depression started to take root.

“I felt devastated, helpless — like I was in a black hole,” she tells In Touch.

“I was a mess and a wreck. I felt like nobody cared about me any more.”

And that’s when she started to self-destruct. The former Playboy pin-up now felt so ugly she couldn’t bear to look in the mirror.

“I had so much anger inside. I even thought of harming myself,” she explains.

“I just threatened (suicide) a lot. I felt like that was my only way to get to Hank and to show it.”

“There were times when I knew I was about to snap. I’d be like, ‘Hank, go! Go away!’ I didn’t feel right. Hank would take the baby and leave the room.”

Other times she would provoke violent fights with Hank and threaten to take baby Hank away from him.

“There was a point where I didn’t think we’d make it. I took off my wedding ring a couple of times,” she tells Life & Style in a separate interview, to promote her new book Being Kendra: Cribs, Cocktails & Getting My Sexy Back.

But it was Hank Jr. who inspired Kendra to fix herself and her relationship with Hank.

“I’ve learned that I need therapy because I’m not 100 percent better,” she says.

“Baby Hank made me stop, step back and realize if I don’t stop acting like this, he’s going to pick up on it.”

And the therapy is working. Kendra reveals, “I feel great. I’m going to live my life happy.”

Did you suffer PPD, HollyMoms? Share your stories with us.

– Ian Garland

More Kendra Stories:

  1. Kendra Wilkinson & Hank Baskett: Why We Need Our Date Nights Plus When Baby #2 Is Coming! Exclusive!
  2. Kendra Wilkinson Felt Like She Had ‘Nothing To Live For’ While Struggling With Postpartum Depression!
  3. Hank And Kendra Have A Family Day At The Park — Reunited And It Feels So Good!

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kendra

Posted at 2:48 PM on September 28, 2011  

i felt tje same after having my daughter i was an very in shape girl and after having her i felt sad all the time and ugly and it didnt help that my bf i was with for four years was cheating on me while i was in the hospital. but when i got my shape back i was ok for the most part. but i think all motyhers should see a theripst after having a child i didnt but i think it would have helped alot

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kympro

Posted at 12:22 PM on September 14, 2011  

I felt the same way after I gave birth to my son. At one point, I locked myself in a closet and just had a panic attack. It was horrible. I’ve since sought counseling and whenever I start to feel depressed, I open up to my husband and we talk through my depressing thoughts.

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LMP

Posted at 12:47 PM on September 21, 2011  

Hank&Kendra you all have a beautiful family. My two girls 11 & 10yrs old were at the check out isle and read your story. I suffer from PDST from when I was 19 at work and was raped at gun point,Im 39 now and still deal with it.I used to be a runway model and pro soccer player and owned several homes and property. I have lost everything including my husband so now im living back home without my kids.Being home is depressing seeing my brother on in home dialasis and fireplace full of my moms favorite things and shes dead. Although im grateful i have a roof over my head i need to getout so i can be with my kids. Living here i gained so much weight and is so depressing makes me want to be in heaven with my mom.They should have a show about this. So many mom’s go thru this. Thanks for sharing your story and may you and your family have a blessed life.

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Courtney

Posted at 10:17 AM on September 14, 2011  

no I’ve never gone through it don’t have children yet but many other stars have over the years and at one time it was tabboo to talk about publically as was to talk about pregnancy loss

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