Steve-O, close friend of the late Ryan Dunn, was notorious for his outrageous antics and wild side — but behind the scenes, the life of the Jackass comedian was not all fun and games.
Steve-O, 37, is coping with the loss of close friend and fellow Jackass co-star Ryan Dunn, who died in a car crash June 20 with a blood-alcohol concentration of .196 at the age of 37. Devastated, Steve-O cancelled six comedy shows since the accident. “I don’t know what to say, except I love Ryan Dunn and I’m really going to miss him,” he tweeted.
The comedian recently teamed up with longtime buddies Ryan, Johnny Knoxville, and Bam Margera for the franchise’s latest film, Jackass 3. This meeting was different, since Steve-O has changed his ways and stopped drinking.
“We have never really hung out without a reason except to get loaded,” he said in an interview with TheFix.com. “If you’re going to put yourself in a situation with people who aren’t sober, you want to be able to have a real reason to be in that situation.”
Behind the scenes, Steve-O stayed strong and refused to drink and do drugs like he did during every other shoot. “I don’t have any legit reason to be in a situation to watch those guys drink. The whole time we did that third movie, I never once did that,” he explained.
However, it wasn’t easy for him to stay sober, since he was under the influence while performing stunts in the past and felt like he needed to rectify his toughness.
“It was so important to me to prove that I still had that in me—-that sobriety hadn’t turned me into a p****,” he said. “It was sober Steve-O versus loaded Steve-O.”
His problems did not end with just alcohol. Steve-O also struggled with other drugs on set as well.
“I bought an eight ball of cocaine and one or two vials of Ketamine,” he said. “I sat there doing line after line of the blow.”
What made the wild boy change his ways? “Basically, I took an honest look at myself and at my actions, and was horrified and felt like I couldn’t forgive or live with myself,” he said. “I wanted to blow my brains out. And I don’t think I ever came close to actually killing myself but I felt so uncomfortable, I didn’t want to live. I checked myself into a second psych ward and that was when it dawned on me that suicide was not the answer.”
He released a book documenting his tumultuous times with drugs and road to recovery in Steve-O: Professional Idiot. “I think people will be surprised to find that I’m not as much of an idiot as they think I am,” he said about the book. “I’m not a real moron.”
More on the aftermath of Ryan Dunn’s passing at HollywoodLife.com