The superstar hopes to inspire girls to love their bodies — just as they are!
“I’ve spoken openly about being bullied throughout the past few years, but one thing that I’ve never been able to feel comfortable talking about was the effects that it had on my life, afterwards,” she tells ABC News. “I literally didn’t know why they were being so mean to me. And when I would ask them why, they would just say, ‘Well, you’re fat.'”
Demi, 18, says these blows caused her to develop a crippling eating disorder.
“I was compulsively overeating when I was eight years old,” she says. “So, I guess, for the past 10 years I’ve had a really unhealthy relationship with food.”
At age 11, cutting became a outlet for the stress related to her body image.
“It was a way of expressing my own shame, of myself, on my own body,” she says. “I was matching the inside to the outside. And there were some times where my emotions were just so built up, I didn’t know what to do. The only way that I could get instant gratification was through an immediate release on myself.”
This dangerous combination of mistreating her body and her advancing career led to some dangerous situations.
“I was performing concerts on an empty stomach,” she says. “I was losing my voice from purging. I was self-medicating. I was not taking medication for depression, and I literally was so emotionally whacked out that I took it out on someone that meant a lot to me.”
Once treatment opened her eyes to her issues, Demi says she was able to learn healthy lifestyle choices, and hopes to pass on her life lessons to young fans.
“For the first time in my life [after treatment], I started to feel,” she says. “The real reason why I’m sitting down with you is to open up the eyes of so many young girls, that it doesn’t have to be this way.”
Demi is such an inspiration for young girls everywhere and we are so glad she’s sharing her story. We hope she has a successful continued recovery!
– William Earl
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