Corey Feldman's Letter to Corey Haim: “My Mission in Life Became Saving Yours”

Wed, March 17, 2010 9:30am EST by 2 Comments

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In a heart-clutching open letter to his dear friend Corey Haim, Corey Feldman tells him, “Nobody will ever need me the way you did … my heart is so broken.”

Corey Feldman is pouring out his grief about the Mar. 10 death of best friend Corey Haim in the most public way possible. In a blog entry titled “A Letter For the Grave,” Feldman wrote a long, highly emotional letter directly to Haim, explaining that he didn’t go to Haim’s funeral in Toronto “out of respect for your mother and her wishes to minimize the media attention as much as possible.”

Feldman also laments that he couldn’t save the oft-troubled Haim: “My mission in life became saving yours. I never gave up, I tried … I walked away, but I always came back, to let you know I was there. In a dark and lonely world with spiteful angry people we always understood each other’s pain.”

He adds, “It is such a shame they all had to wait until you were gone to give you the respect you were due as an actor which is what you truly were.”

Here’s the letter in full:

Dear Corey,

This is for you on the day of your funeral. First off I am so sorry I am not there with you today. By that I mean my physical body is not with your physical body. However you know that my heart is right at your side. You also know the only reason I am truly not there is out of respect for your mother and her wishes to minimize the media attention as much as possible. I want your family to have a calm peaceful day. Hopefully we will not see one shot of the funeral on the news. Just know I am at home today projecting positive energy for you  and your passing.

I miss you so much already. When I think of something funny I don’t know who to tell it to. I find myself trying to call you but then remember your not there. I think about the new movies we will soon be doing together and then suddenly realise that the dream is over. I always feared this day would come, and often rehearsed how to face it. But once confronted with the reality of it, it’s so much more painful than I could have ever imagined. Nobody will ever understand the brotherhood we shared. Nobody will ever get the inside jokes we told. Nobody will understand the magic of 22/222 . Nobody will ever know how to do the secret Corey handshake. Nobody will ever make me laugh as hard as you did. Nobody will ever make me fight as hard as you did. Nobody will ever challenge me the way you did. Nobody will ever need me the way you did.

My mission in life became saving yours. I never gave up, I tried …I walked away, but I always came back, to let you know I was there. In a dark and lonely world with spiteful angry people we always understood each others pain. I have been so hounded by the media and barraged with condolences since your death that I have not been given my own time to grief. I was still in shock while cameras were chasing me down the street looking for my feelings on the matter. When I did Larry King I could barely form sentences, but knew I had to be strong to send a message.

I never knew your death would have such a huge impact on the world. I learned something Corey, there are a lot of people out there who really love you, and appreciate the joy you have brough tho their hearts. I only wish you could see the way the world is mourning over your absence. I wish you could see how big the story is. I wish you could see your face finally filling the cover of People magazine and Entertainment Weekly! That would have meant so much to you. It is such a shame they all had to wait until you were gone to give you the respect you were due as an actor which is what you truly were. The great Canadian actor Corey Haim! I love you and I will forever keep that ring close to my heart. I will do my very best to help give you a memorial that is a celebration of your life the way you would have wanted it…..with everybody laughing and rocking out!

My heart is so broken and I know there are so many who feel the same way I do. We will remember your spirit and your fans will help me keep your legacy alive.

I pray that you are safe and warm and finally filled with peace.

I love you

CF Core Feldog DAWG  C-DOG  KID and every other name you used to call me…..dine!

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Jacque

Posted at 3:05 PM on March 17, 2010  

Really liked Haim. Thought he was funny and loveable as the characters he portrayed on screen. He also gave the aura that he was like that in life (funny & loveable). We have lost another good one and he will be missed, but not forgotten. God’s plan may not be ours but come as it may, it comes. RIP!

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Eduardo

Posted at 11:24 AM on March 17, 2010  

just try and remind yourself of that everyday it was no ones fault but more importantly try not to be over come with guilt.you mr Feldman did what you could. what happens when one leads a dying horse to water the horse can either choose to drink or not. mr haim made a choice not to. people who are addicts
need to make a choice either get well or get six feet under. You sir did what you could to the point of putting everything you worked for and your personal life on hold…
for someone who just wanted to ride the so called wild roller coaster of life
and there comes a point where the ride will just stop short and throw everyone
off. im sure sir that you will agree with me when i say that at some point you must have thought to yourself is all of this really worth it!!
I know i did with my twin brother when i got sober.and 25yrs later here i am
loving life with a hell of a great job.
keep on ahead…

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